Blessed are these people!!!!!

Long time since i scribbled something in my blog ... so back to blog folks :) ...

If u know wat these signs mean .. u will know wats my todays topic s..

Once again my mind is set to write something abt wat i saw in the beach yesterday ...

I was walking in the beach on my way to have dinner .. devoted to my ipod .. i was sight seeing :) .. on my way i happen to c two guys sitting next to each other .. they appeared to be very happy .. they were laughing ... were very expressive ..cin them i just smiled and moved on ... post dinner .. i was walking back ... again i happen to c those two guys still sitting there .. same smile .. same laughter .. same joyous expressions .. then i happened to rem'ber .. i have seen them b4 in the beach .. they are totaly 4 friends ... all young chaps ... but deaf and dumb !!!!

I just said "Curse u god" ... and walked away ... today i saw the same place, they were not there .. bt still i hpnd to rem'ber them .. the smile they had .. they were really happy .. i thought they are not cursed ..

y ??? y did i start thinkin like this ??? reasons are there ... i was crossing by a couple .. who were sitting besides each other, fighting in the public .. cursing each other ... Wow .. nice things to do with their mouth ... made for each other and fight with each other ... :) ... Wats the use?? they are not dumb .. thats their negative .. thats y they hurt each other ...

The biggest sin we make in our life is the MOMENT we HURT others ... that we do with our own mouth ...

We could hear songs ... i was enjoying my time with my ipod .. i used to relax myself watching comic scenes when i get tensed or when im not in a good mood ... I was thinking ... poor them they can hear songs or watch movies to relax themselves .. but y do u get tensed or get addicted to bad mood??? coz we hear things which we dont like to hear ... they are blessed they dont happen to hear all the hopless things we hear ...

Infact i should say we are deaf to hear negative points about us .. we deaf to hear suggestions ..
we are dumb to talk good things abt our enemies ... we were deaf and dumb to our old parents ..

Still they live .. they survive .. they are happy .. they have their own world .. ..

Had they cared abt their problems they would never have survived in this cruel world ..

i have always cursed god that i dont have a handsome looking face ... when i saw them .. i hpnd to know that its the happiness inside heart tat expresses and increases ur personality .. its not the look tat matters .. those who opt for looks are none less than hookers ...

Looks deceives .. but true heart doesnt ...

my mom has a hereditary problem .. the last kid in the family will tend to bcome deaf as age grows and my mom was no exception .. she turned total deaf when i was 7 yrs old ... my dad took pains to get her operated .. i rem'ber d moments when i used to call my mom and she doesnt even turn back to look at me .. i used to go and pull my mom to look at me ... the day she got operated and was able to hear .. the wonderful moment i had n my life .. i shouted n my mom ears .. "AMMA" .. she smiled and replied .. " IM ABLE TO HEAR U"

Later my dad happened to fall sick coz of stroke and my dad is still suffering ....

Coming from such a background .. i really say to those people that they are not cursed .. they are no different from others .. they are one among us .. humans ... i pray that the smile in their face never fades away .... :) ..

Frustrated!!!!

Long time since i blogged . .. so im back !!!

have u ever been in a situation where u happen to think "God pls this should not happen" and nxt minute it happens in front of ur eyes ..

How many times u mite have faced it ... wat happens if it happens continously and ur not able to do anything abt it !!!!

ya im a victim of that ..

First .. when i was in hospital recently ... suffering renal failure .. i happened to undergo DIALYSIS .. first it was done inbetween legs .. i was not allowed to walk for 5 days ...

just lied in bed for 5 days .. sixth day i begged the doc to get me free of this dailysis thing and let me walk .. he sw the reports and convinced ..he let me go free .. got me transfered to the GW ..

it was even more heart breaking place .. i happen to c people vomiting blood and passing urine mixed with blood :( .. my good .. frightening days really ....

one fine morning ..doc assistant came to me to chk my reports and said "the urea in ur body doesnt seem to reduce .. mite be u mite have to undergo dialysis again" ... first time in hospital.. u must imagine the shock i must have got .. though now the two tubes were not between my legs .. much worse .. it was plugged into my neck down my throat ...

that very moment when doc assistant said .. i prayed all gods, tat somehow i should not undergo second round of dialysis .. the moment i ended my prayer chief doc came to me to tell i have to do dialysis again ...

Second .....
Recently My project got over and i was moved to another project . which is already in a do or die situation ... some scape goats including me was moved to tat project to avoid bench sometime .. (bench could hav been much better instead :) ) ...

There is a pl who never goes home wat ever b the situation .. never cn such a lady who never goes home .. morning she sits there .. evning she is there .. cant imagine how her husband allows that ...

as i cant sit late nites and cant work on saturdays i was praying all my gods to help me.. not to put in her module ... and imagine wat .. again .. i alone was put in her module ... all others escaped .. :(

dont know .. may b i looked like a dumb ass who is ready to do wat people like to do ..

sometimes i seriously dont understand y god make these moves .. but all has a reason ..and he cant b questioned .. all happens for good ..

so lets c wat god has for me .. by moving me into the project :) ...Good Night!!!!