Vickraman V.P

Trying to find myself ....

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Nostalgic moments of my childhood !!!


Hi Folks .. back again :) ... this time its not abt my mom or dad ...

This time this blog goes as a small dedication 4 my Long time friend .. whom i lost in touch for about 12 years n happened to meet her yesterday .. :)

HOW?????? Just Guess ..... Via Orkut ... First time after i joined ORKUT ... i found its real use ..

Yesterday n office, as i didnt hve much work, i was just browsing my orkut scraps .. suddenly i saw some female sending me a message "Hi Vickram Palani" .. i just couldnt understand who she is .. replied back sayin a "hi and who r u ??? " .. i thought chal vickram ..finally some chick has also scrapped u :D ..

Then she started giving me shocks by telling my full name .. my sister's name .. etc etc .. one sec i thought someone is fooling me :D ... then she said abt herself .. but she didnt have to tell anything much abt herself ..the instance she told tat she was my neighbour n mumbai.. i got IT!! though couldnt TRUST my EYES .. still it was she :) ..

And the most funniest part is .. i forgot her DOB :D .. but so sweet of her .. she rem'bers mine :) ..

She was my sweet neighbour ... we were family friends .. Lots of times we have fought with each other .. Some sweet incidents exists in my memory so fresh tat i could still rem'ber the angered face of hers .. the situation .. etc etc :)

Once it was d day f my birthday n by mistake told me tat she has got me a Geometry box as gift.. :) .. do u know wat i did :D .. i fought with her tat i NEED tat boz immediately ... Stubborn she was .. she didnt give me :( .. she also started fighting :D . my mom caught me and her mom caught her .. i tried a lot but my mom also supported her :D .. and i went to my school without tat geometry boz :( ..

Evening in the party she finally gave me :) .. felt so happy as though i won some gold CUP :D...

Another most funniest incident was .. the first horror movie i saw n my life ws in her house ... :D .. EVIL DEAD .. i went to her house like a LION .. when the movie started she ran away after a few minutes :D (hope i rem'ber it rite :) got to verify with her :) ) ... but me being a GUY .. first covered my face with a bed spread ... then slowly got up and ran away to my house :D .. first tho i was making fun f her .. but then i ran away my self .. wat to do im a LION rite :D

These r just very few incidents .. lots are there !!! :) .. all fun filled . that time i used to fight with her for all petty issues .. now i realize y i used to fight with her :) .. today just imagine the feeling how it will be when u talk to ur childhood friend after 12 years ... Gosh i cant imagine oofff 12 years :) ..

She was telling me that she was searching for me for abt 12 years .. but couldnt find me .. finally sterday she found me out in orkut successfullly :) ...

It's a very nice feeling to know someone tells u that they have been searching for us ... if its love its a diff feeling .. but some FRIEND .. who considers u so CLOSE ..finds u out .. tells u tat she was searching .. i was n tears literally ... the most fantastic moment of my life .. and im sure anyone reading this will also accept with me :)

Always i have praised FRIENDSHIP tat its a feeling worth more than LOVE .. things u cant tell to ur parents .. ur sis .. ur bro ... u will tell to ur FRIEND ...

dont know whether this is a coincidence :) .. i just changed my signature to this one few days back ...

"You meet people who forget you. You forget people you meet. But sometimes you meet those people you can't forget. Those are your friends !! "

wat to say abt this .. is it coincidence ??? wat ever it is ... ITS TRUE rite .. When i got this quotes i got the meaning in my head .. but not in heart :)

Now this quotes striked my heart ..tellin me tat every line of it is true :) ...

Still im missing some of my best school mates in mumbai .. lets c whether orkut gets me those buddies also :) ..

Thursday, May 25, 2006

My First Hero


Hi Folks ... Back to scribble something in my blog after a enthusiastic day yet again !!!!

Today i was thinking something about HERO and heroism .. and i happened to rem'ber my First Fav Hero n my life ... No its not Sharukh or Rajini ..

It my DAD!! the luminary of my life!!! the Sweetest couple i have ever cn .. though not as sexy as john and bipasha .. but still as sweet as onscreen couple Sharukh and kajol n DDLJ :) ..... its my PARENTS !!!

Every difficult to know wat they have understood abt each other .. coz both always fight for petty things (n a lighter sense :D ) .. but still end f day they laugh, sit and watch mega serials together :D .. funny rite ..Perfect understanding !!!

My dad is A HERO ..

WE enact wat rajini does rite... N I act the way my father does .. i have handled problems d way my father handles ..

Infact i have learnt to how to LIVE cin my DAD ..

Wat does a hero does .. Beat the BAd guys ... ya my dad did .. once, when my sis was small, someone, by mistake, rode d cycle over my sister feet and my dad got so furious tat he beat him black and blue .. poor chap he didnt do it on purpose .. but still his carelessness fractured my sis feet :(

Hero sings .. ya my dad sings ..though d song is "Kalyana samayal satham" eating my mom cooked food :D ..

Hero does good for people who does bad .. ya dad did.. he has helped his brother even though he cheated him n all instances ..

Hero ask sorry if he makes a mistake .. ya my dad does .. b4 i fell sick recently my dad never thought tat i will have renal failure .. coz i dont smoke or drink .. first i had just fever n my dad was like "y go to Madras or tanjore for fever,just get admitted here .. we will get it cured .." but once we had no other option .. i came to apollo .and when i was reported f acute renal failure .. i have never cn him so heart broken ... he was in such a state tat he felt tat he s cause of such severity of my condition !!! when dialysis was goin .. i was allowed to meet my parents only once in a day for 30 mintues :( .. my dad daily, inspite of stroke, used to come from my sis house to hospital .. sit for hours to meet me ...
One day he came in n said "vicky .. dont worry i will spend all the money i have for ur treatment .." .. i caught my dad hand and said "dont worry i have company given insurance, will adjust the bill with that " he walked away laughing ...Though his love was clearly visible !!

Wat Hero does ..makes a living for others .. ya my dad did make a living for others .. when we were in mumbai, we had a maid servant from andhra .. he was very loyal and sincere ... tat was around 1983 when i was a baby .. one of my dad's friend asked for people to work in offices n dubai ... we didnt have any other servant nor did we know anyone ..as my mom was helpless without a servant with two small kids and a baby .. still my dad was the first one to suggest this guy .. he made him a living .. few years later he came to mumbai just to thank us .. came to our house .. thanked my dad for his kindness .. may b tats wat s keeping us well now :)..

Morever .. Wat the hero and heroine does always ... they love each other truely!!! n i dont need to explain how much my dad and mom love each other .. (Sshh : though they never tell each other directly :D )

So my Dad is HERO Indeed!!!!

And Im Sure for Every1 Their Dad s d first Hero and I stand no exception !!!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Expectation!!!


Hi Folks .Back after long time .. this time its not about Beach side stories .. This is about something which i have learned from my experience in all these years ..

In Life we expect a lot of things to happen .. some happens some doesnt ... but still we keep moving .. once again EXPECTING tat wat we EXPECT will happen n future .. So EXPECTATION has got no end .

When we write our board exams we EXPECT tat we will get Centum or good marks in these and these papers .. sometimes we get ... sometimes we dont..

i expected Good marks in 12th .. got but still my physics paper didnt have enough mark to boost my CUT-OFF for getting into reputed Eng College .. but God plays his own game .. i got into Velammal and Luck, i thought has left me off .. but later to realize tat infact i was in MUCH better college . one of my school mate got into better college than me .. first year of my college i have cursed my life tat I DIDNT GET wat i EXPECTED neither marks nor COLLEGE ... frustrated i was ... but at the end .. god's play came to light .. by end of 4th year my COLLEGE fared better both academic and n campus recruitment ... i got a job where my friend didnt instead of good institution!!!!! So EXPECTATION did fail .. but LIFE DIDNT .. rite :)

In College, I EXPECTED i will FARE better during recruitement for my first comp ..but again EXPECTATION FAILED ... i happened to lose n first ROUND ... but next time SIFY came and i was made up tat I WILL GET NTO THIS AT WAT EVER COST!!! EXPECTATION turned out TRUE .. i got selected .. I joined Sify ... I should say that's the GOLDEST MOMENT Of life after my 12th and 4th year in college ... never ever i was so happy ... i EXPECTED tat those moments should never END .. I got the best of friends in sify !!!

But again Happiness and Enjoyment is not everthing .. Life has to go .. had to take the hard turn to search for another job ... went for iflex, the first time job search ... EXPECTED results was obtained !!! :) ..EXPECTATIONS satisfied ....

Rite now Expecting ONSITE ... Expecting better appraisal !!!

Dont know whether all this will happen .. but still MIND expects .. WAT did i learn in all these years ?? Creating EXPECTATION is not a sin .. only when u DREAM u EXPECT .. only then u can move towards a GOAL ... but wat i learn is EXPECTATION when goes UNSATISFIED, s not the END of LIFE ... sometimes .. my unsatisfied expectation lead me to better life .. my unsatifaction lead me to better college .. better friends .. better life ..

So Make sure EXPECTATION doesnt COVER UR eyes .. its a dream .. if comes true feel happy .. :)

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Marriage! An Agreement .. not an unification!!!!


Back after 8 days gap :) ... I know this topic is totally irrelevant to me .. im 23 years old .. but still.. something i have heard, seen ...with that idea in my mind, im just scribbling some of my thoughts ...

Marriage, Made in Heaven but fate s decided in EARTH rite:)

I consider it as an Agreement Between two Minds telling each other that "Thy so shall adjust and will live with u under all circumstances" ..rather than an unification of two hearts ...

Unification of hearts ..just a romantic phrase coined by movies :) ...

If its unification of two hearts .. then Letters Starting with "DEAR" b4 Marraige wont change to "HI" post marriage ... Phone calls ending with "Love u" wont change to "Bye" post marriage coz Hearts never Change but Mind Set Changes ...

Shopping every week turns to once in a month .. every weekend outings change to once in a while ...

Y does this happens ???

TAKE IT FOR GRANTED .. he/she takes other for granted .. thats were the problem starts ....

Before Marriage both of them TALK to each other for HOURS but pity them, to impress each other... both act ..atleast ADJUST each other to the most, to keep things happier..

Post Marriage .. latter thinks former will adjust as he/she did b4 marriage ...when things dont go as expected .. things get worse .. once things get worse ..

Next time .. the first fight adds fuel and imaginations to both and with ego's pouring in ... things burst ...

Where did all the prob start ?? B4 marriage .. where both f them ACT to impress each other ...

Y Marriage is done if both f them dont fit n each other completely ???

Thats where both of them agree to a point saying " Even though we are not 100% similar in thoughts .. we will adjust with each other and live a happy life" ...

My dad and mom would be a best example here !!!

I have seen small fights between my mom and dad ... it always happens ..else wat family it is .. :)

My dad, who is suffering from apoplexy cant do things on his own .. he needs my mom help even to trivial things... but still they fight :) ... My mom doesnt talk to my dad after a fight .. nite comes and my mom keeps the dinner plate and slowly comes to my side and says "ask ur dad to go and eat" :) .. and as my mom doesnt take FOOD .. my dad comes to me and tell "ur mom is hungry ask to her eat " .. sweet dad and mom ...

Wat an adjustment ... they stand by the agreement of marriage ... Inspite of difference in thinking they live together .. me n my sisters have grown as responsible and good citizens !!! coz of them !!! salute to u dad and mom ...

If Marriage was UNIFICATION of HEART .. Fights would have never come ..

Its a agreement ... and im sure above example must have made it clear and im sure lots will accept its true, as that is wat s happening in most of our houses and trust me i didnt pick it up from any MEGA serial or novel :) ...


Think from ur MIND always .. coz Hearts Deceive, add sentiments ..adds imagination ...

So Mantra for Happy Life : Adjust with each other .. no one is perfect !!!!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Post ENGAGEMENT!!!!Friendship ka haal???


Ha ha .. i rather consider this topic quite funny though it sounds serious.. reasons are there ...

till date i have had friends of my age ... so all were bachelors (eligible bachelor's i should say :)) ..

When i moved from my first company to second.. i could find good friends but all were older than me .. old enough to get married :) ...

one of my close friend from the new company ... we have went together for lunch .. sat in beach together for hours watchin the babes walking ..commented .. laughed at them.. showed jealously towards the guys having Girl Friends .. :) ...

Have went out to movies together ... He got engaged recently ... then things changed ... first i started going for lunch alone .. then coffee .. then dinner ... and finally he couldnt even find time to sit n beach for half an hour .. nothin wrong .. he was without a GF for all these days .. so suddenly one interesting turning point in his life ... :) no probs ..

office he talks to her in phone .. lunch he goes to her house ... evening coffee he goes there ... dinner he skips mostly to talk to her in tat time . .. wat caused this sudden change ... wat happens to people mind ...

Cant he spend a coffee session atleast with friends .. does friends bcome take it for granted once we get a fiancee ???? are all like that ??? or some change like tat ???? who knows wat will i do .. may b i will turn out to one like tat in future ... :) ..

another interesting matter ... one of my friend from prev office (he shares the same name as the previous :D ) ... he has a friend ..i know both of them .. i know they are quite GOOD friends for long time ... my friend recently got his fiancee .. double side love ... fine .. good .. best wishes to him ... but these days he doesnt have time to talk to his friend.. whom he has known for YEARs ..... and neither does the latter contacts the former ... ego or something i dont know .. but friendship is not tat close as it was ...who is to be blamed here?? the girl ??or the guy who doesnt know to strike a balance between friends and wife ... or nature which changes people ....

Long time friendship turns out to ashes in two days ... y??? do they still rem'ber that we still consider them as same old friend ... do they care the same as they used to ?????

lots of questions strike my mind .. but i dont know the answer this time ... may b i got to wait .. i mite the know the answer after i get engaged!!! :) ... so till then let me keep guessing!!!!!!!